Inner Demons

The battle lines have been drawn, sides have been chosen, the armies are being gathered. As the song says, "better go get your armor". Valleys are going to be flooded with the blood of many, many tears will be shed over those that are lost. But, there won't be any winner in this battle as it has been and will be raging on for years. The enemy has been sighted and is known. Seeing them up close and personal, they are demons. Things that are hard to fight and disperse.

Everyone fights these demons, no matter who they are or what they say. We all have them and fight them almost on a daily basis. Some are victorious and can over come them, fighting them back to where they belong. But many others have fought them for years, and many others have lost their lives to these demons. These demons come in all shapes and sizes and for each person, they are different in many ways. Some can fight alone and win. While others need the help of others.

You can see them clearly in the dark as they are there always watching. The light of day brings some relief but they are still there, watching and waiting for the darkness to fall again to attack. They love to come when you are sleeping. Entering your mind when you are most vunerable, when the walls are down. But, they don't come from the outside world. They come from the inside, inside of us all. They are our inner demons.

The Family

You know that the people you can count on the most, are supposed to be the people that are closest to you, your family. They are supposed to be there for you no matter what happens or is happening in your life. They are supposed to support you in whatever decisions you might make for your life. They are supposed to help you to become a better person, pick you up when you are down, make sure you are happy in all parts of your life.

But, there are those families where they are not close. They barely talk with one another most of the time and even act like strangers when they are in the presence of one another. You wonder if you have a family like this and you begin to think about all of the times in your life. The birthdays you had, all were invited, no one showed up cause they went to another. The holidays, when you sat and watched others opening tons of presents, when you sat with only a few in front of you. Big times, graduations, etc. when they all knew you did something great in your life and none of them were there. But, no, not you, your family isn't like that at all. Then, all the memories of all these things that happend come flooding back in and you realize that, yes, it is your family.

Now, you have started building an extended family. Those you know that will be there for you and have been there for you when you needed them. They know you better than the blood relations you have. They celebrate with you when you do something good and are proud of you when you complete something. You get pats on the back, hugs, etc from them. You feel closer to them than others. You know they all feel the same way about you. You are there for them when they need you. You are there when they need to talk, have a celebration, etc. In your mind, they are, the family.

Always Waiting

I see you every day. You think you can get rid of me? Think again.
No matter what you do or try to do, I will always be here.
You can't do anything to stop me once I am inside you.
You can't run, take anything, or hide from me.
I will be eating at your insides till I take you down completely.

Once I decide who I want, I will go after them. I doesn't
matter to me who you are. I will take your love, your
Father, Mother, child, or friend. If I want them, I will
take them totally away from you. I am always here,
watching and waiting.

Have your guessed my name yet? If you haven't,
I am called AIDS. So many try to avoid me, but
they just can't. They can't help themselves with
not doing stupid things to let me inside. Go ahead,
use that needle after someone else. Don't use
that condom, it will make it easier for me to get
in.

You see, I can and will get you, get your all. No
matter what you do to try to stop me, I will
get under your skin, eat you from the inside
out. Those that are careful, I can wait for a
long time. I will be, always waiting.