Tuesday, April 30, 2013

A Dark Place

     You have been doing a good job at hiding all that is inside you, but you also know, you won't be able to keep it that way for a very long time. You are not as strong as you were before mentally, physically, or emotionally. You try to hide it from everyone by showing you are positive, smiling, and laughing. But, it gets harder and harder each day. There are things you want to do and things that need to be done, but you can not do them because of all you have been through. You are not as strong as you were before. All you think about lately is wanting to get away, even if for a few days. But, you don't know where to go, have the means to go, and do not want to go alone.

     You are with someone who loves you a great deal, does all things needed to take care of you, and yet you still sometimes feel like you are alone. You do not let out what is inside of you in front of them because you do not want them to see your weakness. You can not take care of them the way you know you should be taking care of them. This puts you even deeper into the darkness. You can see it surrounding you on every side, with no light to be found past it.

     Its a darkness deeper than you have ever seen in your life. Darker than any night of the year, even without a moon. You only want to get back to feeling the way you were before, filled with life, energy, and happiness. You are happy in many ways, with the person you are with and some of the things around you. But, you know there are many things that you can not do or change. So, the darkness gets closer still. Soon you will be surrounded by the darkness to the point, there will be no way to escape. You want and need to get away, but you can't. So, you will be staying in your dark place for a while longer. Till there is a way or a bridge back to the light.

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Thank you for taking some time to read through my writings. I hope that you were able to take something away with you as you leave. Always kiss the person you love when you part, you never know if it will be the last kiss.